No mRE sidetracks..............

Call me crazy.........


You keep sending out mixed signals or I guess I only saw what I wanted to see............
Why does my heart beat so when I see you......
When does my heart call for you........

I went outta my way to get you to notice me,
Sent out all the right signals but I guess I'm not what you want.
I don't mind really,
It's not the first time.....

I just can't give up hoping I guess
even when I think Ive erased you........
I see myself staring at your window,
Wanting you to notice me,
Hoping I have it all wrong and you do in fact think of me.

I got a text today from some unknown person saying he thinks am cute,
Possibly a prank,
But silently I prayed, hoped and wanted it to be you,
Well it wasn't............
Ofcourse it wasn't........ what was I thinking..........
Life doesnt work that way......... atleast not for me.

I know God sometimes dnt let things go as planned in order to save us from ourselves,
But sometimes the heartache feels so damning that we actuallt don't mind the downfall


I say No Mre sidetracks...........
But my heart knows the truth,
It knows I'm a sucker
and what am really saying is..........
I want you so much it hurts inside.

Shattered!!!!

I've never tried this hard when it comes to what I feel......
So why now,.............

God knows I've sworn to stop,........... but I just can't
Funnie maybe it's because you don't even acknowledge me.............
I've never been on this side of the game...........
I've always got what I wanted................
And right now, Je Pense Que Je Vous Veux.............

Well Ce La Vi............. Que Sera Sera
That's all I can say...........
I'm I a freak for trying or just desparate...............

If not getting back with my ex............
Cutting out from my male friends and basically being unavailable for anyone else but you is being desparate...............
Then I'm guilty of it!!!

It's not so encouraging YOU having so many friends and always being unavailable.........
Jealousy is not my thing,........... I don't play that way,
But 5mins of your time,.......... is all am asking...................

Bullshit!!!!!!!! I don't do the chasing................... never had, and wouldn't start now.
Sending all the right signals,.............
THE CHOICE IS URS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the build up

Love can be tricky some times......
It hits you when you least expect it too.

Funny thing, I don't believe in love,
But why do I feel the way I do.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying I love you,
I'm saying: I feel something within that makes me do some crazy things.

For example, staring at your room through my window, hoping you'd notice me
or making silly excuses to justify being in the same room as you.

I don't know what it is but I know I wish you could give me a sign,
Whether good or bad,
Just something for closure,
Cuz there's one thing my heart won't let go of,
The one thing that drives me crazy......
The one thing that keeps me going and doing the things I do.......

HOPE!!!!!